Though the ambiance was top shelf, with fine china dinnerware, excellent champagne and decadent deserts, I felt sick at evening's end. I had this horrible pain in my upper abdomen. It started as mild indigestion and over time it increased to the point of sleepless nights. I had been successful at home remedies, such as baking soda and water, which had always worked in the past, giving relief easily. As my discomfort progressed so did the remedy, anti-acids over the counter. This too came to an unsatisfied end.
I decided I needed to see my physician. I was informed that I had developed Acid Reflux disorder. Oh! this was so painful and I hated that I was reduced to taking medication.
I had always prided myself on the fact that I was a big, beautiful girl who was healthy. You see if I wasn't sick as a result of my weight that meant I really wasn't that overweight. I really was a master of self deception at this point in my life. I never thought of myself as obese, what a horrible, disgraceful word. Disgraceful because obese, to me, means Out-Of-Control. You see I am a fixer by nature, I fix other persons. A fixer can't need fixing??? The implications were too much for me to bare at this time of my life.
The pain is washing over me, I need shrimp scampi, lobster tail dripping in clarified butter, wine in crystal glasses and chocolate mouse for desert. Oaaah! I feel better right now.
How long could I last at this rate................??????????
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