Last night was really tough. Tough to get through without my compulsion to eat getting the best of me. I ate three meals for the day. Let's see: breakfast: 1 fried egg, 2 slices beacon, 4 tbls grits-delicious. Lunch: Salad w/chicken, 1 banana. Dinner: Slice of steak with 1/2 cup stuffing(mistake!) and an apple. The stuffing made me feel very ill it was made of white bread. With gastric bypass wheat or multi grain are the best. I know how to eat to feel good and yet at times I am a saboteur.
My emotional pain is increasing, my Daddy died just this weekend. I feel afraid of the pain and so I want to eat, eat, eat. I know if I give in to that behavior I will only hate myself and begin a downward spiral.
I need to get back to basics and pick up a few essential items which will enable me to eat properly while enjoying my eating experience.
I saw a few necessary items to purchase: Food Steamer, Juicer, Grill, Slow Cooker. I already have great cookware. A few new recipes won't hurt, might brighten my resolve to care for myself and treat me good.
I visit a website www.kitchensavvyplus.com and I find great products as well as free recipes. I saw a Richard Simmons food steamer I must have. Even I can cook an easy quick meal all at once. I'll have no excuse to eat junk food! This could work out. I also saw a great juicer. With gastric bypass it is better to eat the fruit than to drink juice due to what is called dumping but there are times I do drink juice and if I prepare it myself I can eliminate the added sugars in store bought. I saw some great Corelle dinnerware. I didn't know that you can even cook on these dishes and then put them in the dishwasher, now that's for me, no pots to wash. The slow cookers as really attractive, not the old grandma looking ones. I like that I can put all my ingredients in at once, turn it on, go to work and at the end of the day dinner is served! Enough talk I need to shop and get to work.
Take care of me, I deserve it.
